"You could be my silver spring
Blue-green colors flashing
I would be your only dream
Your shining over ocean crashing
Did you say that she was pretty
And did you say that she loved you
Baby I don't want to know
So I begin not to love you
Turn 'round, see me running
I say I loved you years ago
But tell myself you never loved me, no
And don't say that she's pretty
And did you say that she loved you
Baby I don't want to know
Oh no
And can you tell me was it worth it
Baby I don't want to know
Time cast a spell on you
But you won't forget me
I know I could have loved you
But you would not let me 
I follow you down 'till the sound
Of my voice will haunt you
(Give me just a chance)
You'll never get away from the sound
Of the woman who loves you"

im slowing getting better. im slowing not caring so much anymore. its kinda a relief actually. 
i wish that i could be fully ok but i dont think that will ever happen. 
its something that has forver scared me, but im working on it.
ive wanted to write for a while about everything thats been going on this summer but ive been so damn busy. with work and hanging out and going to the gym and the beach and everything. im never home.
sara come home about a month and a half ago and i had so much fun while she was here.
even though i worked alot we hung out all the time. we mostly just played mario party and stuff but it was so great.
im actually really bumming pretty hard that she went back home. im really gonna miss her being around. :(
school starts next week. boo. i havnt been to school in a year and a half. im actually kinda looking forward to it. but not really. i wish i wasnt working full time and going to school.
but working full time did help me buy my own car. all on my own :)
im so old now. lol.