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Friday, August 17, 2007

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 04:48:04 GMT

"You could be my silver spring
Blue-green colors flashing
I would be your only dream
Your shining over ocean crashing
Did you say that she was pretty
And did you say that she loved you
Baby I don't want to know
So I begin not to love you
Turn 'round, see me running
I say I loved you years ago
But tell myself you never loved me, no
And don't say that she's pretty
And did you say that she loved you
Baby I don't want to know
Oh no
And can you tell me was it worth it
Baby I don't want to know
Time cast a spell on you
But you won't forget me
I know I could have loved you
But you would not let me
I follow you down 'till the sound
Of my voice will haunt you
(Give me just a chance)
You'll never get away from the sound
Of the woman who loves you"

im slowing getting better. im slowing not caring so much anymore. its kinda a relief actually.
i wish that i could be fully ok but i dont think that will ever happen.
its something that has forver scared me, but im working on it.
ive wanted to write for a while about everything thats been going on this summer but ive been so damn busy. with work and hanging out and going to the gym and the beach and everything. im never home.
sara come home about a month and a half ago and i had so much fun while she was here.
even though i worked alot we hung out all the time. we mostly just played mario party and stuff but it was so great.
im actually really bumming pretty hard that she went back home. im really gonna miss her being around. :(
school starts next week. boo. i havnt been to school in a year and a half. im actually kinda looking forward to it. but not really. i wish i wasnt working full time and going to school.
but working full time did help me buy my own car. all on my own :)
im so old now. lol.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 05:29:41 GMT

You are a Concerned Thinker.

personalDNA

about you

You are a Thinker

Your cautiousness, appreciation of functionality, and imagination combine to make you a THINKER.

You have a vivid capacity for imagery that allows you to see beyond your present circumstances.

You like to be sure of yourself before voicing your opinion.

A lot of your time is spent at home, or with the people you care about.

Although you may dream often, you're very aware of how things work, and you value things that work well.

You take comfort in the familiar, and value predictability—and others value those things in you.

Accordingly, you prefer a set routine, and although you often imagine how things can be different, you're hesitant to take risks to change things.

Sometimes you doubt whether you have the ability to face certain challenges, but your practical focus helps you solve most problems.

Because of this, you tend to be more reactive than proactive, thinking thoroughly about the challenges that you face.

You have a broad-based, theoretical understanding of the world that allows you to understand its workings.

You're not one to force your positions on a group, and you tend to be fair in evaluating different options.

You prefer to have time to plan for things, feeling better with a schedule than with keeping plans up in the air until the last minute.

You have a strong sense of style and value your personal presentation - friends may even seek your style advice from time to time.

If you want to be different:

Try indulging your imagination a bit more by experiencing new and different things.

Have a little more faith in your capacity to do things—turn your thoughts into actions!

how you relate to others

You are Concerned

Your understanding of others' emotions, your sense of right and wrong, and your skeptical nature make you CONCERNED.

Your observations of your environment, in concert with your clearly defined worldview, leads you to be aware of the feelings of others.

Because you can read people well, and because you can understand their feelings, you are often bothered by others' insensitive behavior.

While you appreciate others' emotional nature, you don't think their emotional concerns should take precedence over their obligations to society.

You prefer to be in smaller groups, as big groups can occasionally get out of hand.

Order and structure are somewhat important to you—you believe that people's feelings are better protected when others are respectful and follow certain societal guidelines.

You tend to share your feelings with a few individuals who are close with you, but otherwise you are a somewhat private person.

If you want to be different:

Let your caring nature allow you to put more trust in people in general—you can have more faith in them without losing your valuable skepticism.

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 04:49:35 GMT

i hate that this still effects me the way it does.
i love that were actually talking and being friend like though.
it means the world to me. :)

my sister graduated from high school yesterday.
i feel really old.
i got her a really nice phone.
shes loves it. :)

my jobs getting better, i think im actually starting to like it.
i had an interview for another one yesterday,
that i think went really well,
i dont know what to do now, cause this one is part time
and in newbury park.
but the one i have now, is full and in oxnard, which sucks.
but i have paid time off and benifits. soooo. i dunno.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

Sun, 10 Jun 2007 04:34:11 GMT

knockedup was probably one of the finnuest movies ive ever seen.
probably the best movie i have seen in a long time.
i was cracking up. lol.
i saw it in vegas last weekend.
man i had so much fun.

i hate this time of year.
im not doing very well.
someone please help me.

"I think I am losing the fight
And I don't know if I can do it
I don't know if I can try
I don't know if anyone asked me the reason I lied.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Sun, 27 May 2007 05:20:40 GMT

i really like my new job,
and the money im making.
i can finally afford to but a car,
a nice one too. :)

my cousin from aust is here. :)
it makes me happy i miss that place alot.

i like where we are. it makes me really happy.

red jump suit apparatus_ false pretence.
(Oh, it's time to let it go)

The world's got a funny way of turning round on you
When a friend tries to stab you right in the face
Losing faith in everything I thought I hoped and knew
Don't sweat it, set off false pretense

Betray, you're not gonna be willing to change
Yeah, and it doesn't seem likely to fade
Betray, you're not gonna be willing to change
Ca-ca-ca-cause you know

In sacrifice, false pretense
You're letting go
Stop pretending
Don't deny
False pretense, you're letting go

All alone you know you thought you got the best of me
You were wrong and I'm laughing right in your face
I cannot believe you blamed you were my family
Don't sweat it, set off false pretense

Betray, you're not gonna be willing to change
Yeah, and it doesn't seem likely to fade
Betray, you're not gonna be willing to change
Ca-ca-ca-cause you know

In sacrifice, false pretense
You're letting go
Stop pretending
Don't deny
False pretense, you're letting go

(Oh, it's time to let it go)

I can't seem to understand it how you've turned out to be so cold
You tried but were caught red handed, are you happy with your role?
It's funny to me how you've turned into such a joke

In sacrifice, false pretense
You're letting go
Stop pretending
Don't deny
False pretense, you're letting go

So play the game until you run out
And play the game into my head

Friday, May 11, 2007

Fri, 11 May 2007 14:20:08 GMT

take me away.
please.
for i have fallen.
nothing could ever exceed the pain of last night.
:(

why the hell do you make me feel this way.
i fucking hate it.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 16:20:07 GMT

6 more months.
i feel old. lol.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 23:23:49 GMT

happy 4th birthday!
well yesterday but whatever.
i think ive had this way to long.

anyway.
things kinda suck right now,
i wish i had someone to talk to.
like really talk to.
i miss tanya. i miss talking to her.
i just miss that country period
i wish i was still there.
or maybe just out of newbury.
im gonna try to move up to sf,
im starting to hate it here. :(

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 23:36:36 GMT

im sick. it sucks.

btw blades of glory is hilarious!

i miss you....

Monday, March 26, 2007

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 01:08:44 GMT

im home.
and have been for the past 25 days, lol.
dosnt really fell like that long.
im enjoying it. kinda.
i miss australia everyday.
and the people i meet there.

i work at forever 21.
it kinda blows. i dont like it really.
the people i work with are real cool though.
i had alot of fun with them today. :)

my phone is absolutly awesome.
and i might get a job with verizon wireless.
cross your fingers and pray that i will. lol.